I've been a christian since my early teenage years. Coming from a religiously diverse family, my parents left it up to us kids to chose what religion we each wanted to follow. It seemed like we each went different ways, and I chose Christianity. Despite our differences of faith we were able to get along, at least as well as siblings can get along. I bounced around a bit between different christian faiths initially, but eventually settled on non-denominational Christian. That was several decades ago now.
In that time I've seen plenty of atrocities committed by Christians, but I've always been able to dismiss them as the oddity rather than the norm. But in the past few weeks we've seen nothing but Christians showing their ass to the point that it's no longer the rarity, it's now the norm for Christians to be total douche-bags. While there are still some non-douche-bag Christians, they are now the rarity. Just take a look at cowboygrandpa here on Newsvine. He's a great guy and a Christian. But here's the thing, you know why he sticks out in your mind? It's because he's the rarity and not the norm.
So what should any of this have to do with my faith? I mean, my faith shouldn't be determined by someone else's words and actions, right? Well yeah, but here's the thing. If I believe Jesus then I'd have to believe Him when He said that by their fruit shall ye know them. But by their fruit I know Christianity to be evil, vile inconsiderate racist lying bigots who don't give a damn about anybody but themselves. The behavior we have seen on display lately by the majority of Christianity isn't behavior that any God that I could ever bring myself to believe in would condone.
Now I'm not trying to say I'm perfect, or even that I'm any better than that, because I'm not. I think you all know I can get pretty vile at times myself, and at one time I went through a racist phase, and I'm hardly what any polite old lady would call a considerate person. So I'm no better than anyone. But here's the thing, when I was the oddity but the norm was still good, I could still believe in Christianity; but now I'm left with the realization that since the norm is evil, then if I believe Jesus, then I can't believe in Christianity. Because Christianity as a whole, has been showing itself lately to be far more evil and vile than virtually any other religion on Earth, including Atheism (if you want to call that a religion, I will in this instance for comparative purposes).
I find myself unable to reconcile this paradox any other way except to not believe in the bible at all. Because if I don't believe in the bible then the paradox ceases to be a paradox at all, plus it would make a lot more sense if the followers of a false religion were more evil. So here it is, I hereby officially renounce my Christianity. I am no longer Christian. I no longer believe in the bible and I no longer believe in Christ.
I don't know where I'll go from here. I definitely still believe there's more than just this life, so I can't bring myself to believe as the Atheists do that we simply cease to exist at death; but what religion I become next is a big question mark. The one thing I do know is that no matter what direction I go from here, it'll be a step up from Christianity.